when everything else fails

Self Depreciation

praise they had it all flowing for me
but don’t know why i hate to admit
all the love they had set aside for me
why i want to deny all what they commit

i’m far intelligent and respected they all claim
stop now, keep aside your stupid self blame
appreciate your abilities, don’t deny the acclaim
but long gone, i feel is my desire for fame

where is my sense of enjoyment they ask
why don’t you love when all they do is admire
cannot decipher, why is your face a mask
is the flow a stranger to you, they inquire

feel like i have lost it all
all in a stupid race against time
time erased my pride to fight
fight made me weak and to regret
regret led to all the bitterness
bitterness against all is what i feel

admiration makes my deep bones rattle
send down electric shivers through my spine
my feelings shame me down to think i’m cattle
feel like want to wrap my head on twine

i hate when they say i’m a part of the cycle
and want to know why i missed the party
the cycle they can dispose and recycle
never did i care if they said i have lost my sanity


One response

  1. crownlessxx

    hmmm dunno why i feel something for this creation..being praised falsely and unreasonably can be annoying lol..well when they just praise you but never try to figure you out it’s stupid..i think it let everything you did that they praise now down..actually it’s not really an encouragement..
    well what they really should be doing is ..understanding our efforts and analysing them so that they can really tell us what’s good and what’s bad what’s ok and what needs more attention but well most of them may be ignorantly do the exact opposite ..they just flatter what we’ve done ..well may be it can make us happy but a false praise is not as good as a fair criticism..

    December 17, 2008 at 5:52 pm

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