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Posts tagged “loneliness

I Sip A Bitter Cocktail

every drop tastes in bitterness divine
every tear freezes harder where cheeks align
with dearest death oh sweetness i entwine
with feelings drowned in sorrow i shall resign

pure love is a failed campaign for glory
where that cup of victory is a hard sip
lay groveling in sand dirtied in details gory
is the only victory your hand will dip

countless are the lies set in absent shame
clouded minds made all mistakes done in heat
when you are a two who will take the blame
will you or your other one still beloved in defeat

in hollow anger shame flies like autumn birds
fleeing from approaching terrible winter dates
in that absent shame let forth violent words
like a lake hugged in freezing wintered fate

lay groveling in sand of defeat this cold november
in reminiscence of glory days when time flies
in bitterness an empty smile i remember
and will lay freezing when every fleck of light dies

resigned from life this empty shell becomes me
now lay weeping of days with happier dealings
how a mighty oak gives way to a cold axe in fury
chip by chip every sorrow strikes with harder feelings

this november final flowers of a season blooms and wither
count those fragile petals before wind blows them away
reality is a frame lost in reason and doused bitter
death is a cocktail that tastes better come your final day

in shivering cold i count each cycle of day and night
just empty numbers meant for dying petals by the lake
and count and sip every drop divine till i loose the fight
oh tears shall freeze harder my dearest when death shall take

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Pantoum: My Lover Sailed Away


smiling he waves from further away
in a ship sailing on sapphire waters
with tears my suffering eyes gives way
beat by beat my heart painfully falters

in a ship sailing on sapphire waters
they all went hunting for gold in new lands
beat by beat my heart painfully falters
i fear he lost his heart on foreign sands

they all went hunting for gold in new lands
he promised fruits from an emerald field
i fear he lost his heart on foreign sands
he is gone for long fear he lost his shield

he promised fruits from an emerald field
i wanted not treasure but his silken touch
he is gone for long fear he lost his shield
fear he met his demise oh i miss so much

i wanted not treasure but his silken touch
but only got wind caressing me these cold nights
fear he met his demise oh i miss so much
ever my pained cloudy eyes see ghostly sights

but only got wind caressing me these cold nights
sleepless in solitude as midnight wane
ever my pained cloudy eyes see ghostly sights
now over the hill i see his floating pale frame

sleepless in solitude as midnight wane
with tears my suffering eyes gives way
now over the hill i see his floating pale frame
smiling he waves from further away

this is my second attempt at the pantoum form, which i think is a great but challenging way for storytelling. ever since i read about it at dVerse – Poets Pub, i’ve been in love with it.


The Tomorrow

i switch on the lights . . .
now i see a photograph
of us together, from a time
when we was still together
still smiling like children
like children in the dawn
the mischief
the gleam in your eyes
the ghost of our lives
when we still believed
there was no tomorrow

i switch off the lights . . .
now i see darkness
i see myself alone, in a time
when nothing seems to hold on
the sadness, the regret, the parting
life after dusk
when everything i believed on
has finally faded away
leaving the ghost of myself
to linger on
in my tomorrow


Reclaimed By Dark Seas

the silence of your empty heart
pouring from your blurry eyes
when you got no more words to say
no more roads to walk together

the paths you walked holding hands
on the sands of an island heart
are gone, washed by raging seas
bought storms over your crown

enshrined tightly shining lightly
in the brightest rays of twilight moon
the one ring you clutch and hold so dear
a last gift for the raging seas

in the boredom you tried to kill
are disillusioned thoughts eating
your weeping black heart
silently gone, last bits of sanity

resigned thoughts silently sought
in the deepest pits of dark blue seas
a distant echo calls your denied soul
for a different salvation denied to others

entwined tightly resenting lightly
waters embrace your last breath
all memories erased and replaced
by empty redemption you sought


Rose So Beautiful You Hid Your Thorns

when all the flowers of summer started fading
trees shed leaves and hardened thorns exposing
i never expected you would leave me bleeding
to brood with angst and grief i am now feeling

every winter the moon i likened your face to is smiling
sardonically as i tuck my coat tight shivering
when i count stars with my again lonely self laying
on the grass white misty and dewdrops freezing

my paradise in eden you left desecrated and appalling
your sweetest honey burns my meat from deep and piercing
thorns left me bleeding poison from your ritual of draining
i am weak and chained with no hopes for another rising

when summer rises a promethean hell keeps my flesh chained and tearing
blinded by pain i sense from afar the games you are playing
dancing on ice and stealing glances countless shy kisses connecting
your last dance i know not because my knives are not for stabbing


Pray For Me, My Dearest Love

pray for me, my dearest love, look into my strained eyes
wherever you are, please try, see what it tries to say
oceans of tears streaming behind my useless sighs
why is this, i can’t believe it was all in one day

i’ve aged like centuries, i am feeling weak now
day you left seems like ages ago but it was yesterday
like a moment ago i swore my life to you my dearest love
i want to live in the sweetest memories of you every day

hold my hand again, like the day you calmed me
i was never down because i lived in your shadow
like the days you went over me, again let it be
can’t bear now because i’m not used to be without you

i try to remember your words, because i never expected, i cannot
you now ignore me, all of sudden, i feel i have lost my guide
life is a challenge you said, would have liked if time forgot
life is a pleasure you said, but now i feel for me it is denied

pray for me, my dearest love, can you see my bloodshot eyes
from wherever you are, listen to my heart when it sighs
i can’t believe, my heart is pouring blood in to my eyes
dearly within my pits, i want to believe this is all lies


A Forgotten Shrine

at then end of the long winding down
there is a shady groove renown
falling autumn leaves crisp and brown
feel of the breezy air is all around

beside the shady autumn groove
weathering the ages is a proven shrine
beneath the cloven bark weevils dine
without even a gush, silent shades move

standing guard through the endless ages
a shrine where inscribed within are tales of esteem
as even memories faded within the stone pages
shadow faced shades yearn for their lost redeem

fables to be recited in full born pride
but tales long ago forgotten by bards
are inscribed on stone plates inside
much of them are in ruined shards

along the walls of the crumbling shrine
vines of ivy root and blossoms bloom
even as sunlight weakly shine
carved by ages is a shady gloom

never shall a bard tread the winding down
never shall they grace the ivy stone walls
in a willed search for lost fables of renown
because only shades wait as time falls